” Don’t Ever Give Up ”

Buddha Says” You don’t have to live your life feeling bad about your past. You can let it go and finally find peace.

This is my real story!!!Just wanna tell you all, In life things get hard, You find lots of obstacles but life has to go on and, Now I believe in one thing,

Learn From Your Past+Work Smart on Present= Make A Great Future.

Now, I’ve been doing amazingly well. Now, I had found my way forward and that I would never feel that way again. I thought my suicidal ideation was a historical part of my existence.

But, I was wrong.

This morning, I sat in the bath watching the water trickle down from the faucet and all I could think was how easy it would be to watch the blood trickle down my arms into the water instead.

I thought of how easy it would be to drift away into nothingness. I thought of how easy it would be to not have to get up every morning to face another day of emptiness. I thought of the peace I would have if I were no longer afraid all the time and how wonderful it would be to be free from the prison of my mind.

Sometimes, I long for this.

Sometimes, I long for death.

I do not long for death itself, being cold and distant and immovable. But, I sometimes long for something other than” Who I Am? What My Purpose In This World? I long for a feeling of safety and security. I long to feel loved and cherished, not used and abused.

You know what the best thing happen ” I long to feel anything that is something more than the nothing I feel right now.

So, What Do You Want Exactly With Life?

I know what you want. I want it too. You want someone to love you, someone, to care, someone to tell you everything will be fine. You want someone to tell you that even if you aren’t perfect, you’re enough just you are. You want someone to care, and it seems as if there is no amount of caring that will fill the empty hole in your heart, and no matter how hard you try to fill it up yourself it only goes halfway and then starts slipping back to empty.

Every day seems a struggle for survival. Every day you wake up and wonder, ” How much longer can I go on?

The emptiness that fills your heart and soul begins to take over your rationality.

At some point, the things that kept you going have become meaningless. The life you have lived for so many years was just a struggle to survive. Today you are at a point where nothing means anything. You aren’t even in pain. You feel nothing. You want to give up. You want to no longer exist. You want to stop being. The endless negative thoughts swirl around in your brain compelling you to end everything. The hope for the future subsidies to a dulling ache keeping you going every day.

We Blame On Things Not Going Right, But We Incapable To Get Off The Couch And Get Outside.

Reason Why Life Has To Go On-

Sometimes feels like Shit, I don’t know why I don’t give up sometimes. Most days I want to give up. But, the human spirit is powerful. The desire to live is a stronger held need that keeps you in this world.

You Know, There is only one reason I don’t give up.

There is only one belief that sits in the back of my mind that keeps me going day after day.

What My Belief Says?

Have Hope.

There is always something that I hope for. I hope for change. I hope for strength. I hope for love. I hope for caring. I hope a great future for my friends and family, I hope that things won’t always be as they have been.

Hope, My Folks, is the only thing keeping me, and probably you, alive.

What Does Hope Mean To Me?

To me ‘Hope’ means constantly seeking a new way. It means looking deep inside to find what exactly it is that seems lacking.

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27 thoughts on “” Don’t Ever Give Up ”

  1. I know exactly how you feel – which most people would say, no you don’t. Unfortunately, I do. Because I was physically and sexually abused as a child, I have been a psychological mess all my life. I have attempted suicide, I have hated my life, I have had two breakdowns when I heard voices. Lots of fun.
    There is only true hope in God. There is none in other people or this stupid world. People and life in this world will always disappoint you. They will hurt you, let you down, and make you feel like shit. Trust me, God is it. He is Hope personified. Ask him into your life and you will see. He can fill the holes. He can bring peace. I mean, I still have mental struggles, but I pour out my feelings and thoughts to him and I know he hears and understands.

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  2. You cried out I am answering, this is what I was told to tell you. You may not approve and delete but you will never forget. Hope to me means I am looking outside myself for relief. Hope and fear the two great immobilizer, the controller of the institution that lead to nowhere. You, that which you are, that which you cry out for, is the only hope you need. Accept the fact that what you have been shown may not be true. Start with you , the wonder that you are, the love that you are, the perfection that you. Start with you, you will never need hope again.🌹🌺❤️

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  3. Hope that one day everything will be fine.Hope that one day i will conquer what i dreamed of.Hope that one day i will overcome my fear of past.Hope that one day i will see the real person that i am nd will live in the present.

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  4. I know there are lots of things in people life..different people have different problem..I’m trying to be helping hand@puja:) don’t worry dear things gonna be fine

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  5. I long to find my calling in life. I’ve done so many different things but never anything that kept me happy for very long. Probably fighting the depression and anxiety took too much out of me at times. So yeah, finding my calling and getting into heaven after I die would be my two things to strive for. I think I have a way in with the heaven thing, but finding my calling is another issue.

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    1. Here I can say I believe in right time.. Believing and right time are two different concept. If you believe you enjoy…if you enjoy..you get associated.. And things happens that’s right time..and I think everything has a right time from birth to death..!!

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  6. It’s so easy to give up but it takes a tremendous amount of courage to go on living. Hope is the beacon that makes us want to continue on. Just stay your course and things will all work out. There is someone out there for everyone and they’re on the same path as you. One day you’ll cross paths with your soulmate and it’ll all be worthwhile.

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  7. I’m sorry that you feel so… empty, lost, with no real purpose. It’s a really desperate thought, hope is a good way to go. As I often think; Don’t look back, stay focused on the future and put your hopes into the unknown. Try to change your life’s course, maybe find another work, another​ house, try something unusual which will bring excitement in your life, such as immigration. Find the country of your dreams and fight to live there to become one of the people.
    I’ll suggest you to read a novel by Jules Verne called “Tribulations of a Chinaman in China ” it’s about the same topic, if you’re interested please read it.

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