”William Shakespeare once said, “All the world’s a stage”. As performers in our own productions of “Life”, we deserve an occasional hiatus – a moment to escape our small, scripted performance and make the world our impromptu stage.”
A hiatus is a gap. An interruption. An interval. It’s a break in continuity.
Like a seemingly incessant rain stopping for a while, then resume again. The hiatus is the bit in between, where nothing much seems to happen, whilst nature works out which way things will go…
A hiatus can happen in our lives, too.
- a writer writes nothing for years after publishing her first novel.
- a youth takes a year off after college before starting university.
- a seasoned professional loses his job, and falls into a depression as he struggles to find a next one –
or takes a sabbatical after a time of intensive working.
- a wife and mother find herself floundering as she tries to rebuild her own life after the end of her marriage, or after her kids have flown the nest.
- an accident or an illness forces us to stop what we’re doing and makes us reconsider how we want to live.
A hiatus can happen naturally, like when you come to the end of an era. You can slide into such an end gradually (say, when your long-time job becomes increasingly untenable), or be thrown into it suddenly (say, if someone passes away unexpectedly). Or you can trigger or initiate it yourself (say, by deciding to take time out), or have it forced upon you (say, when you’re made redundant).
And – much as we might not like hiatus experiences…
We all go through them, Even the most successful, popular, rich or famous of us. Multiple times in our lives. And in fact, your hiatus may turn into something that shapes you, makes you more tolerant, compassionate, or wise. Or more determined. Your hiatus may indeed make you!
So, what kind of a hiatus have you experienced? Or are you in the middle of one right now?
Some of my own hiatus experiences include:
Being numb on the inside for years, after the sudden death of my mother when I was 20 – whilst on the outside, my career was moving forward seemingly stellarly, as I took refuge from my grief in working hard, and working a lot.
There have been less dramatic hiatus experiences too, like when I embarked on a search for my calling in life and work, and my life went from a straight-line rise in school and career to a trial-and-error, meandering journey that was enriching, but at times didn’t seem to lead anywhere in particular.
One thing I’ve learned from these experiences (and, by the way, they keep occurring every now and then even now that I’ve found my calling as a Change Catalyser, and have set up my coaching practice)
A hiatus is not what it seems:-
And that’s good news!
I’ve come to think that the image of a hiatus as being the empty, unproductive bit between two clear, achieving states – A) what we were doing before, and B) what we’ll be doing afterward – is an illusion.
Because what’s more likely happens is that we’re moving from A) to B) in a much more gradual, bit-by-bit and seamless kind of way. With quite a few detours, backward-and-forwards, and even going -’round-in-circles in between.
So that B) kind of evolves from A) over time.
And B), though it may be stable for a while, is not a set-in-stone state, either. Rather, I suspect that things might happen in it that state, almost imperceptibly, which start moving us on towards its end – and towards C) – i.e. what we’ll do after B).
This means that hiatus experiences, though seemingly empty or quiet, are not really unproductive bits of our journey, but useful transitions that move us forward even though we might not feel that they do.
The bit in between – the hiatus – can feel like a hole into which we’ve fallen
Like we’re stuck there, unable to escape nor move our life forward.
The lack of clarity, direction, goals to work towards, outward productivity or visible progress a hiatus might bring can make it seem like we’ve been paused, halted, held back. And the uncertainty about our future and whether we’ll be able to pick up the reins of our life again or not, can prey on our mind and make our hiatus a very uncomfortable place to be!
So what to do? How to be on a hiatus?
Below are things to do that help me when I’m in-between.
Make your peace with where you are:-
Know that being a hiatus is normal and inevitable. Remind yourself that they’ll keep happening – to you and to everyone else. That they’re part of the process of any and every life. Accept that this is where you are right now; fighting or resisting it will only make you feel worse.
You are where you are. No big deal. So just be there for a bit!
Settle into not knowing how your life is going to unfold from here. See the time in between not as an annoyance, a block or an obstacle to your progress and achievements, but as your chance to take a breather. Let go of wanting to be in control – which we never really are, anyway.
Instead, relax in the knowledge that this hiatus, ultimately, serves your journey and that your next move will become apparent in its own time.
You might be tempted to structure what’s going on: Create a project. Set yourself some goals. Make a To Do List. Go into activity overdrive. Anything to escape the uncertainty of being in between life phases, jobs, or relationships… Anything to give you a feeling that you’re productive, that you’re going somewhere.
But: Resist this impulse. Take the pressure off. Practice “not-thinking-it-through” for a change. Get used to “not-doing-anything-in-particular” for a bit. And notice how perhaps it’s not as scary as you thought, after all.
Enjoy the space:-
Where something’s ended – an era or a life phase, a job, a relationship – a space opens up. As we’re grieving the loss of what’s ended, this space can initially seem like a scary, gaping, black hole. Resist the desire to fill it with noise and activity, just to make it more bearable
Because really, this hole is also a blank canvas, an opening and an opportunity. See if you can enjoy the freedom from the obligations and responsibilities that came with your previous situation. And the sense of possibility for what might lie ahead for you…
Let things sink in:-
Actively process what’s happened with your life so far. Let go of what or who is no longer part of it. Digest what’s ended, and acknowledge how you feel about it. Don’t be afraid to let yourself feel whatever you feel, and know it will pass.
Give your brain and your system a chance to ‘arrive’, before rushing off to a next thing or a next person. And take whatever time it takes for you to let the dust settle and let it all sink in.
Reflect – leisurely:-
Once the greatest upheaval has passed (if there has been one in the first place), you might find yourself in a reflective place. Take advantage of that. Take stock of the phase that has ended. Acknowledge its good and its bad aspects, the things that were easy about it as well as those that were difficult. Celebrate what you’ve achieved. Learn from what has worked for you and from what hasn’t. Draw out the golden nuggets of insight and wisdom that will help you mature as a person and serve you in the future.
Most importantly: Do some or all of this leisurely and enjoy the process!
Work on yourself:-
When there’s less stuff going on in our life and world around us, we have an opportunity to look inside ourselves instead.
We can look at our own role and behaviour in what’s happened to us and our life. Acknowledge where we’ve acted in constructive ways and where we could learn more helpful behaviours or attitudes for the future. We can attend to how we’re feeling. To what needs to be (emotionally) digested. To what we need to let go, or forgive. We can look after ourselves, too – particularly if we’ve been through a tough time – and nurse ourselves back to strength and good health. And get the outside help for it where needed – through working with a coach or counsellor, or immersing ourselves in a book, course or programme.
We all want to get well and move (emotionally) on from a unpleasant or painful situation as soon as possible, yet healing can take us time.
So what if you allowed yourself this time?
And do for your emotional hurt the equivalent of what you would do for a physical hurt? Clean and dress the wound. Give it air. Give the wounded part of you rest, or use it only very gently. Give it time to settle and heal. Then strengthen and build up the wounded, healing part again – perhaps the equivalent of having physiotherapy could be to start an alternative body-and-mind or psychological therapy or programme.
Build your inner resources:-
Strength and health are but two inner resources we can re-build when we heal. You might find, from reflecting on what’s happened and on your own role in it, that other inner resources would serve you well in the future. You could, for example, develop your patience. Your resilience, self reliance, conflict resolution abilities. Or your determination, fighting spirit, confidence or reataining a sense of humour in difficult situations.Or your kindness and ability to love and accept. The possibilities are endless.
I love this quote by Fritz Perls: “Stop pushing. The river flows on its own.”
In Western society and culture, we are conditioned from an early age to make things happen. Work hard to get the grades at school. Set professional and life goals and go for them. Do stuff, push through obstacles, fight for our dreams.
That’s all ok, and there’s a place for that. But the implication that comes with this kind of life philosophy, i.e. that we can achieve anything we want if we just work, push, fight hard enough, is a treacherous one. Because life doesn’t always work this way, and not all is in our control. Often, things come about with more ease when we stop pushing and relax into the flow of what’s around us. Being awake and aware, spotting and noticing opportunities as they come up, and then going with them – not forthem.
So go on: In your hiatus, try tuning in and going with the flow!
See the gifts:-
No matter how difficult a life stage has been – it often also brings a gift.
Sometimes – and particularly when we’re in the thick of it – that’s not so easy to see. We can tell ourselves that a tough situation we’re in will make us stronger and wiser in the future, but we might not really feel this whilst we’re battling with it.
And yet – the more you can see the gifts, the good stuff, the opportunities that are also present (despite and at the same time as the difficulty), the easier it will become to move through your hiatus.
So: Acknowledge the good, however small. Look for the opening. What is still or newly possible? And can you perhaps, somewhere inside yourself, find a place from which it is possible to be grateful?
Experience new things:-
A hiatus is a wonderful opportunity to experience new things. After all, you might well be free of the obligations of your previous life phase, and perhaps have more time on your hands.
Here’s your chance to try something you’ve always wanted to do, or something you feel drawn to. Hopefully, it will lift your energy and give you joy. It might also stimulate your creative juices and help you figure out what you want next in your life. You’ll likely meet new people. And you might start seeing things in different ways, too.
It doesn’t matter what you choose: A gardening course. Joining a choir. Volunteering work. Traveling to a place you’ve never been to.
What is it that draws you?
Let things emerge and unfold:-
So now that you’re more comfortable with the fact that the river flows on its own and you’re more at ease in flowing with it without getting stuck: Give it time. Cultivate your patience. Stay awake and aware, and notice what’s around you, and engage in opportunities that draw you.
Cultivate your patience: Allow your next thing to emerge. Let things mature until they’re ready. Let yourself get ready.
Once things get underway: Let them unfold.
I love the saying that nature doesn’t rush things – so why should we? We can coax things along and keep them flowing, growing and developing, but ultimately, everything happens in its own good time.
So just have a mindset of allowing this to happen.
Follow your joy;-
This is one of the most important principles!
And it’s not a hedonistic pursuit, because neuroscience says that most things that feel wholesomely joyful to us are also good and right for us.
So take that as a guide for testing opportunities and things that emerge for you during your hiatus, before and whilst embarking on them: Does this person, activity or thing feel (quietly or exhilaratingly) joyful? Does it make your heart sing? Does it feel inherently right for you? Then go for it. And if it doesn’t: Why would you pursue it further?
Trust the process (and be safe):-
A hiatus can be an uncertain time, and as human beings, we’re conditioned by evolution not to like uncertainty.
If you start feeling restless, anxious or even panicky, then making sure you are safe is important. And if you know that you are safe and that nothing bad can happen to you, then reminding yourself, and recognizing that you are safe, will help you feel calmer.
What’s also helpful is to trust the process: Cultivate your faith that you’ll come out of your hiatus eventually. You’ll find your next thing. You’ll know what’s next for you eventually. You’ll find your way – directly or indirectly.
Know that you cannot really go wrong: If you miss a turn, it’s likely to come up for you again at a later stage. If you discover that you’ve taken a detour, you can always adjust course or turn around.
So, trust the process. And keep the faith!